Ahead Yet Behind

You ever been so far ahead you got behind? I have. Today, in fact. I started out wayyyyyyyy too early to work and arrived 30 minutes before I can officially clock in. I had the motivation throughout the morning and stayed busy and engaged all day. Yet, after I arrived home I realized I was behind. I forgot to do some simple things this morning like write the blog!

To add to the craziness, I was so off my game that I said something off the cuff that NEVER should have been said out loud. They say not to make permanent decisions from temporary feelings. Well, apparently that works with mouthing off too. Don't say something with such weight that it will echo through the walls of time when you're having a temporal emotion.

I'm starting to question every decision I've made in the past few months. I've been off balance since my mom went into the hospital the week I was moving. Too much is too much! Since that week, I haven't been able to trust myself. When your emotions are popping up and down like popcorn, probably shouldn't base any decisions on them.

Now if it's a decision that must be made that's different. Then, I analyze it from every angle and pray hard. If the same answer keeps coming back to me and won't let go, then I know I'm probably onto something profound. Then, I leap. Am I always right? No. But I can't stop trying.