Need a Fix

Nothing is working. I'm trying all the things that worked in the past to overcome the feeling of being alone. A recent break-up on top of empty nesting as a single parent is really too much. Doesn't matter what got me here, I'm just here and need to survive it.

I tried to research online and the info for empty nesting as a single parent was bunk. Nothing new, no new revelation for me. I feel sooooooooooo lost. Planning a trip doesn't help, spending time with friends and family brings no relief. I have too much to miss. A life in my current home with my son, our pets, and his friends has been wiped out. And it's all my doing. I didn't realize how much my life revolved around this. All of this was my life. And now it's not.

Yes, it's healthy for my son but my life is completely empty and rearranged. God help me! If only I could learn the key to happiness. What if it's more selfishness? Doing more things that solely make me happy? I don't know but I need a fix and I need it fast.