Nothing Moments

I think it must be written down somewhere that life can't always be fun. It's not always filled with people we care about either. There are lots of gaps full of nothingness. Maybe that's why I purposed to be a goal oriented person.

If I had a goal, then I had a purpose. If I had a purpose then my life made sense. Then you get some miles on you like an old Ford and you realize life isn't making us any promises. There is no guarantee all my dreams will come true. Not every moment of my life will be filled with love, friends, and family.

I'm having one of those days today where the epiphany trumps the fantasy. This is my life, for all it is and all it isn't. I have to dig deep and remember how I used to handle these quiet, lonely moments. At one time, I was involved in the performing arts. I had time on my hands and I loved to dance. Back then I would fill the emptiness by choreographing.

Truth be told, I wasn't the strongest performer. But I was a heck of a storyteller with a heart to help people. I combined those two and grew my ministry. At one point, I was asked to lead three different arts departments at churches in different states. I turned my quiet, lonely moments into a ministry.

In 2020 when COVID tookover I was forced to telework and had way too much time on my hands. In between work, I started writing short stories. I wrote a novel of 65,000 words. Never in my life did I imagine that I could have that kind of focus. The story was solid but the execution was amateur.

I'm glad I wrote this today. It's reminded me of what I'm capable of in the nothing moments. Time to refocus and push through to my next endeavor. God only knows what will come out of it!