Timing is Everything

Sometimes I wish there was a plug in my heart. That I could twist off and let the pain leak out. Maybe I'm a control freak. Maybe impatient. In reality, I think I'm just a human. When something hurts what does a human do? Try to find a way to alleviate the pain.

This in between sucks. I hate to keep referencing songs, but these songwriters are framing up my feelings perfectly. Why reinvent the wheel? Tom Petty sang in "The Waiting" that "Waiting is the hardest part." I couldn't articulate it any better than that. Tick, tick, tick hopefully that is the sound of time erasing my pain.

It's more grueling to wait it out, but productive. It feels like a Gulf Coast wave sliding up onto the shore washing everything away. Wave by wave, the pain is drug out into the deep. There's nothing to do but slowly and patiently wait for the drowning. Wait for that day when I wake up and smile again.

The morning where I feel hopeful and like things could be good again. It's coming. I can't give up. In my five decades of life, I've seen it happen again and again. That's what I will keep my eye on as the pain subsides slowly. The end goal, to be happy. Timing is everything!