To Do List for Love

Is it weird that I wrote out a "To Do" list for love? With extra time on my hands and a recent break-up, I used this time to go introspective and dissect me. It's not like I haven't done this before, but this time I was desperate to search out the rogue counter productive relational behavior and wrangle it. Or, at least control it.

At my age, my chances for happiness in love are winding down. I'm in the ninth inning. It is do or die time. I need to get ahead of the game and not miss out on something great again. Hence, the list.

I carry the list with me and study it. Do this. Don't do that. Every time I read it the list makes total sense too. I don't wince when I look at it laughing at my own ridiculousness. Just the opposite, I look at it and let my soul absorb the truth in it.

I'm determined to be better. Not perfect, but not so guarded. Fear does not get to determine my future. Worry does not get to dominate my choices and reactions any longer. Those feelings still manifest but I treat them like fleeting fancies. Not sure if a love opportunity will present itself again but if it does...I'm ready.