When Love Won't Leave

Love really is like a drug. So unstable. Costs you everything. Hooks you until you can't live without it. It leaves you will jonesing for it. Your body, mind, and soul will do funny things as you detox. I should know unfortunately I've been through it.

The question is can you really get over it? Depends on whom you ask. I say no. A person you love imprints your heart like wet clay and that mark dries like stone. You can live around it, love around it, exist around it but it's not going anywhere. This is the exact reason alcoholics call themselves "Recovering Alcoholics". It is a battle they will fight every day of their lives. The longing addiction doesn't leave.

Probably where the saying "you never get over your first love" comes from. I was engaged at 24 and I truly loved the young man. He truly loved me and we had a fairy tale courtship. I mean, he proposed by the water in Hawaii! In fact, I'm writing one a novella around the idea of it. He was my one true love.

We reconnected a couple of years ago, with permission from his wife, and hashed out our feelings still stuffed down deep. They were still there, it became obvious so we quit talking out of respect for his wife. I have loved again, just differently. I'm not sorry he happened either. I was blessed enough to feel what you see portrayed in RomComs and intense love stories like Somewhere in Time.

I guess it's no different than when you marry a widow or widower who never got over their spouse. Let's face it, no one can depose the power of the first real love. But you can be happy again. And I want that for you and for me. Until then, I'll just write about it.