Why I Love Writing: Feelings Revealed

This morning was a revelation. A truth bomb hit me as I typed on my work laptop. The more I typed to tackle a cumbersome work document, the more feelings of inadequacy, dread, and stark fear shot out of me.

It took me a while to identify my reaction. After several minutes, I realized my gut was somersaulting but not in a good way. I was overwhelmed. Here I was on my day off stressing myself out trying to keep up with work. It's not that the work is too hard. Or, that it is unmanageable. There are simply stumbling blocks that will need to be squared off and eradicated in person. It stressed me to see things I couldn't fix for now.

As crazy as it sounds, that is why I love writing. It always reveals the truth buried in me. The real feelings I even hide from myself. Once I identified and owned my fears, I determined I would not spend my day off like that. I refused to torture myself in such a way. Labor Day, to boot! So, I finished my task, closed the laptop promising myself to tackle the project line by line during work hours. Not today.

If you want to find yourself...write. Journal. Let your fingers tell you what your mind doesn't have the courage to voice. The tricky mind has a way of bypassing the heart. But writing? That is where the heart speaks and the mind is silenced.